That pretty much sums up about 80% of my day. Nothing particular happened, just an overwhelming sense of being overwhelmed. It’s probably just *that* time of the month talking and I’m overly emotional. I spent this morning feeling teary, had sorted myself out by mid-afternoon then one tiny comment left me feeling a bit teary again. I have no idea where it came from; I think I’m doing okay at work. I’m in a situation where it’s an extremely busy time and I need to pick up the middle of projects and carry them on. And that’s fine, there’s just a lot to take in and I need some guidance, and unfortunately it’s also a time in which everyone else is busy too so it’s not an easy-peasy, breaking-me-in-gently process. It’s a ‘this, this, this, this, this, this…etc need doing – now go’, and I knew it would be like that and I can deal with it. I just wasn’t expecting that many things to keep cropping up which shifts everything else which I’ve just arranged. I am keeping on top of it all. It’s just leaving me feeling exhausted at the end of the day and I can’t just leave it at work, it comes home with me and goes over in my mind all evening, then I dream weird and strange dreams which leave me reeling when I wake up to my alarm and I’m confused as to where I am and what that noise is.

It’s hard too coming from a place I loved and was one of the ‘family’ into a place I feel out of the mix. Obviously I’ve only been there a week, it takes time to be one of the team and have your place within it, but it’s a bit lonely out there in the meantime; just when you need some friends around to vent to – most days were coffee-and-a-vent days at my old work. I miss the banter which made it all so homely. I don’t know, I’m tired and teary again but it’s 9pm and everything seems more dramatic until you wake up in the morning and realise it was your hormones talking. I’ll be fine tomorrow. It’s Friday in the morning and then it’s the weekend and I can forget all about it. Except for the fact I’ve got some ‘homework’ to do.

I need a hug.

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